a little post about you & I.

Sometimes I kiss people that don't make me feel like you did
and let them unbutton my shirt anyway.
Sometimes I didn't go to class b/c all I wanted to do was sleep
and just sit there and think about how it doesn't matter b/c I'm a failure already.
Sometimes I sit at the bottom of the pool until my ears pop and start to ring.
Sometimes I take a five hour nap in the middle of the day
just so my brain will stop for a while.
Sometimes I forgot the speed limit
while I played my music loud enough so everyone knew I hated the world
and sometimes I smoke so much I can't remember what time it is in hopes that everything just goes by a little faster instead of the slow pace of reality.
Sometimes I don't cry at all even though I want too so bad;
but I've run out of tears
and the energy it takes to cry.
Sometimes I shut everyone out b/c I know they deserve better.
Sometimes I just hold my pillow for a while pretending it's someone who cares/pretending you.
Sometimes I miss you and sometimes I miss myself but I don't think either are coming back so I'm learning to adapt.